Over the past week or so, I have been changing the blog’s appearance, moving accounts, etc. And while I have not written a post in a while, there has been good reason for not doing so- Changes, Renewal, New Beginnings.
As luck would have it, I was accepted into grad school. Thinking that I would not get in, I was preparing myself for another year working retail and living at home. The acceptance letter caught me off guard. Since receiving it, my life has been a whirlwind of preparations- volunteering, working extra hours for some much needed money, gathering the necessities, etc. I now start in less than a month and I will be moving two hours away from home. This is the first time I will be out on my own; about time right? But with this new change came anxiety and fears.
In order for me to start preparing, I had to let go of the anxiety and fears that plagued me. Would I be able to complete the program? Am I smart enough? Would my relationship with my boyfriend survive the distance? How would my emotional and mental states fair this journey? These questions do me no good. I do not have the answers and I won’t until I reach the end. Shedding them has been difficult. Bits and pieces still stick.
Healing these parts of myself has also taken much of my focus. My excitement for knowledge needed renewal, but the excitement needs balance. As part of my journey to heal this within myself, I have started Reiki and Shamanism training. (I know that using the words Shaman and Shamanism are highly controversial, but that is what the teacher calls her methods and I have no other word for what she has taught me. These words will serve this purpose for now.) My Shamanism teacher had surgery in the Spring, and has been unable to teach since. This combined with going away to school, my lessons with her have been put on hold. Yesterday, I completed the training for Reiki II. This too, will have to be put on hold for now. I may be able to continue my training when I visit home, but I believe I have learned what I needed to for now. Enough to heal myself and help others, which is really what I wanted to do in the first place right? This is why I am going to school.
Without anxiety and fears bogging me down so much, I have become open to inspiration and letting go has brought me new beginnings. I will not be working a traditional job while going to school, so how can I still reach people and support myself? That is where Mystical Enchantment comes in. Mystical Enchantment is the umbrella under which all of my practices and services will be supplied. Readings by ShelbyMelissa, HallowedMoon, and other services to be announced will all be united under Mystical Enchantment. (Make sure you check out the links!) They will still have their own areas. HallowedMoon will still be HallowedMoon and Readings by ShelbyMelissa will still be Readings by ShelbyMelissa. I have been inspired to share these services with you and to share my experiences. As we all know, I am not the best person to be keeping up with a blog, but hopefully the inspiration will continue to grow.
I have hope for the future rather than fear. I have set my goals in the stars and they shall guide me with their light. Sounds cheesy right? I finally feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And I am excited to share it with you! Make sure you follow this blog to get all of the updates!